This week I've felt really loved. which has been really confusing, with all things considered. certain parts of this week have been really hard. certain parts have been super joyful. which at times has been difficult to understand. this week one of my best friends and i decided to stop dating. its been hard. but in the midst of this week,
i have felt incredibly cared for.
on monday night, my brother Justin let me crash and his place. he made me tea, gave me open ears, and even gave up his bed for me to spend the night.
in the morning, the one and only Amy brought us two 'hungry mans' from Randys. surprise! your favorite breakfast from your favorite breakfast place.
encouragement abounded that morning, sitting with those two. i was able just to sit in my heartbreak and be. and they were with me in that. and i knew the Lord was with me in it too. Amy left me a note that i've read each day this week.
"Isaac, stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today." (Exodus 14:13)
that morning, I felt the overpowering Love of Abba Father. i sure felt my broken, humanness. and yet in that, i felt like the prodigal son,
gifted with new clothes and a signet ring.
The LORD has definitely been carrying me this week. through deep friendship with caring friends, i have felt cared for in a way i have felt almost unworthy of. i am so thankful for those around me who Love me well. i felt an abounding peace this week. which i owe fully to Almighty God.
i have been blessed with two much stinkin' joy on Tuesday night. who knew that it was possible to have so much fun? Zach, TJ, Taylor, Ron, Amy, Maddie and Amy brought a fire of delight that night. Our shouts of jubilee and dancing sprang us beyond the fact that we lost a close game. Joy is good.
on friday night I went with some bros ( Dan, Taylor, Byron) to watch Maija coach her high school girls in a small town an hour or so away. it was good to get away. (who are those random college kids at a tiny high school girls basketball game??)
one of the craziest parts of this week is that it hasn't been one of my best weeks for times of quiet with the Lord. i haven't read my bible a ton. i haven't had much time to worship.
yet. . .
He has felt close. He has felt close as he has been loving me all week. Thank you Jesus.
it must be said, that none of this week has separated me from the fact that something hard has occurred. breaking up is hard. i am super thankful for Anna and our story despite what has happened. i trust fully that the decision has been made of the LORD, which is also a reason i've had a lot of peace. but i'm also holding onto the hope of being good friends with her in the near future. some people are so dear to you it doesn't matter the state of your relationship. you just want to be around them. i know it will take time. but i'm looking forward to being part of each other's lives again, someday soon.
above all, i know that God is greater. and i'm praying that that's enough for me right now.
i have felt incredibly cared for.
on monday night, my brother Justin let me crash and his place. he made me tea, gave me open ears, and even gave up his bed for me to spend the night.
in the morning, the one and only Amy brought us two 'hungry mans' from Randys. surprise! your favorite breakfast from your favorite breakfast place.
encouragement abounded that morning, sitting with those two. i was able just to sit in my heartbreak and be. and they were with me in that. and i knew the Lord was with me in it too. Amy left me a note that i've read each day this week.
"Isaac, stand firm and you will see the deliverance the LORD will bring you today." (Exodus 14:13)
that morning, I felt the overpowering Love of Abba Father. i sure felt my broken, humanness. and yet in that, i felt like the prodigal son,
gifted with new clothes and a signet ring.
The LORD has definitely been carrying me this week. through deep friendship with caring friends, i have felt cared for in a way i have felt almost unworthy of. i am so thankful for those around me who Love me well. i felt an abounding peace this week. which i owe fully to Almighty God.
i have been blessed with two much stinkin' joy on Tuesday night. who knew that it was possible to have so much fun? Zach, TJ, Taylor, Ron, Amy, Maddie and Amy brought a fire of delight that night. Our shouts of jubilee and dancing sprang us beyond the fact that we lost a close game. Joy is good.
on friday night I went with some bros ( Dan, Taylor, Byron) to watch Maija coach her high school girls in a small town an hour or so away. it was good to get away. (who are those random college kids at a tiny high school girls basketball game??)
one of the craziest parts of this week is that it hasn't been one of my best weeks for times of quiet with the Lord. i haven't read my bible a ton. i haven't had much time to worship.
yet. . .
He has felt close. He has felt close as he has been loving me all week. Thank you Jesus.
it must be said, that none of this week has separated me from the fact that something hard has occurred. breaking up is hard. i am super thankful for Anna and our story despite what has happened. i trust fully that the decision has been made of the LORD, which is also a reason i've had a lot of peace. but i'm also holding onto the hope of being good friends with her in the near future. some people are so dear to you it doesn't matter the state of your relationship. you just want to be around them. i know it will take time. but i'm looking forward to being part of each other's lives again, someday soon.
above all, i know that God is greater. and i'm praying that that's enough for me right now.