hello friends.
it has been quite a while.
it has been many months, as well as what seems a like a couple different seasons of life for me as well. as i find myself in season of transition ( post college, pre-what-ever-God-is-leading-me-into-next ) , one thing that i have come to realize are the multiple things that seem to be missing from my life. these are things that i've taken for granted, and not even fully recognized their presence until recently. examples of this have ranged from easier access physical activity to less community. however, one thing that i want to address, and a reason that i am back at the blog, is one very important part of my life that seems to be lacking is a posture of processing. and I wonder if processing in itself, although i mostly think of it as something internal, perhaps is not complete until it is shared.
it is today that i attempt to crawl out of my hibernation of sharing. with tired hands i wipe weary-eyes, waving a long-over-due yawn.
because i want to be honest with you.
i am tired.
tired of a mindset of worry. tired of not sharing what i believe to be important. tired of lies that keep me from standing up for what i believe is true. i am tired of the finicky rules that fear dictates, and the small social boxes i allow myself to crawl into. i am tired of a scrolling-society ( in which i regretfully belong), willing to stand up for issues of justice that are easily forgotten once the page refreshes. i am tired of receiving privilege as a white-male while others are oppressed and marginalized. i am tired of judging others while recognizing i am the very same as they. i am tired of the news. i am tired of many of my actions missing the mark with my spiritual convictions. i am tired of being a bystander. i am tired of witnessing Facebook-feeds of fear, wondering if we are ready to accept broken humans as our savior us rather than the One who reigns as King.
and through this weariness i do not quite know what to do with it. i think i would become overwhelmed if i held on to all of this and tried to figure it out. so i am surrendering it over to my Savior. i am surrendering it to a God who has already received all of the hardship and has promised to make it all New. i am surrendering it all to the One i know i can trust. i am ready to learn through it, sit with the difficult, and walk patiently.
i am ready to arise and become awake. Jesus promises His mind, the mind of Christ, to those who fully trust in Him.
would we ( especially me ) be a people who would seek God and his desires for His world. i am asking God to lead me in what that looks like for me today.
would you join me?
and now, for the words from Sister Ruth Fox (1985) that were passed on to me by a good friend a few years ago:
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May GOD bless you with a restless discomfort about easy answers, half-truths and superficial relationships, so that you may seek truth boldly and love deep within your heart.
May GOD bless you with holy anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may tirelessly work for justice, freedom, and peace among all people.
May GOD bless you with the gift of tears to shed with those who suffer form pain, rejection, starvation, or the loss of all that they cherish, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and transform their pain into joy.
May GOD bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you really can make a difference in the world, so that you are able, with God's grace, to do what others claim cannot be done.
And the blessing GOD the Supreme Majesty, and our Creator, JESUS CHRIST the Incarnate Word, who is our brother and Savior, and the Holy Spirit, our Advocate and Guide, be with you and remain with you, this day and forevermore.
Amen.
* * *
it has been quite a while.
it has been many months, as well as what seems a like a couple different seasons of life for me as well. as i find myself in season of transition ( post college, pre-what-ever-God-is-leading-me-into-next ) , one thing that i have come to realize are the multiple things that seem to be missing from my life. these are things that i've taken for granted, and not even fully recognized their presence until recently. examples of this have ranged from easier access physical activity to less community. however, one thing that i want to address, and a reason that i am back at the blog, is one very important part of my life that seems to be lacking is a posture of processing. and I wonder if processing in itself, although i mostly think of it as something internal, perhaps is not complete until it is shared.
it is today that i attempt to crawl out of my hibernation of sharing. with tired hands i wipe weary-eyes, waving a long-over-due yawn.
because i want to be honest with you.
i am tired.
tired of a mindset of worry. tired of not sharing what i believe to be important. tired of lies that keep me from standing up for what i believe is true. i am tired of the finicky rules that fear dictates, and the small social boxes i allow myself to crawl into. i am tired of a scrolling-society ( in which i regretfully belong), willing to stand up for issues of justice that are easily forgotten once the page refreshes. i am tired of receiving privilege as a white-male while others are oppressed and marginalized. i am tired of judging others while recognizing i am the very same as they. i am tired of the news. i am tired of many of my actions missing the mark with my spiritual convictions. i am tired of being a bystander. i am tired of witnessing Facebook-feeds of fear, wondering if we are ready to accept broken humans as our savior us rather than the One who reigns as King.
and through this weariness i do not quite know what to do with it. i think i would become overwhelmed if i held on to all of this and tried to figure it out. so i am surrendering it over to my Savior. i am surrendering it to a God who has already received all of the hardship and has promised to make it all New. i am surrendering it all to the One i know i can trust. i am ready to learn through it, sit with the difficult, and walk patiently.
i am ready to arise and become awake. Jesus promises His mind, the mind of Christ, to those who fully trust in Him.
would we ( especially me ) be a people who would seek God and his desires for His world. i am asking God to lead me in what that looks like for me today.
would you join me?
and now, for the words from Sister Ruth Fox (1985) that were passed on to me by a good friend a few years ago:
* * *
May GOD bless you with a restless discomfort about easy answers, half-truths and superficial relationships, so that you may seek truth boldly and love deep within your heart.
May GOD bless you with holy anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may tirelessly work for justice, freedom, and peace among all people.
May GOD bless you with the gift of tears to shed with those who suffer form pain, rejection, starvation, or the loss of all that they cherish, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and transform their pain into joy.
May GOD bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you really can make a difference in the world, so that you are able, with God's grace, to do what others claim cannot be done.
And the blessing GOD the Supreme Majesty, and our Creator, JESUS CHRIST the Incarnate Word, who is our brother and Savior, and the Holy Spirit, our Advocate and Guide, be with you and remain with you, this day and forevermore.
Amen.
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